Two Songs Lyrics, also commentary

Gospel Train

When my corduroy suit's turned to ashes,

And my socks are immersed in the sea,

Then that gospel train's goin' to take me,

To a land where the tailors are free.

When the asphalt is bent and decaying,

And the bridges are sunk in the tide,

Then that gospel train's goin' to take me,

To a land where the bike lanes are wide.

When my last lentil bin is depleted,

And my stomach distends with the gasses,

Then that gospel train's goin' to meet me,

And we'll go where one loaf feeds the masses.

When the soles in my shoes are a memory,

And the sidewalk is shriveled and forgotten,

Then that gospel train's goin' to take me

Where highways are made out of cotton.

When my krummhorn is covered with leaches,

And my hands have been sold to the hounds,

Then that gospel train's goin' to bring me

Where galactic polyphony resounds.

So farewell you unrefined sinners,

I'm never to see you again,

I've packed up my watch and my peace pipe,

And I'm boarding that old gospel train.

I'm goin' to see my Lord

Not this life I'm wasting,

I'm goin' to see my Lord.

Not many men have managed it,

But I'm goin' to see my Lord.

I'm stranded in mortality until the break of doom.

Long time the soil's been barren,

But I'm goin' to see my Lord.

A holy land will breathe again,

I'm goin' to see my Lord.

The temple has been crowded, but I'm goin' to make some room.

I tried to build a library,

Now I'm goin' to see my Lord.

The words were almost meaningless,

So I'm goin' to see my Lord.

I'm creepin', I'm climbin' back to the savior's womb.

I tried to write a symphony,

Now I'm goin' to see my Lord.

The orchestra was busy,

So I'm goin' to see my Lord.

Announce to all the nations that I know the holy word.

Someone's sneakin' round the corner,

I'm goin' to see my Lord.

For the showboat was a failure,

So I'm goin' to see my Lord.

At the ending of their journey the assembly was one bird.

I tried to hit a baseball,

Now I'm goin' to see my Lord.

But the ball grew ever larger,

So I'm goin' to see my Lord.

He knows that I've been drinking but I'll never be deterred.

She was as black as her habit,

I'm goin' to see my Lord.

And she said she was the carpenter,

I'm goin' to see my Lord.

I dried her tears & started sweepin' up that quantity of sand.

Now thru the cave it echoes,

That I'm goin' to see my Lord.

O loose your chains, O turn around,

And go to see your Lord.

I used to be a puppet, but I'm free from that dark hand.

I swam with jealous dolphins,

Now I'm goin' to see my Lord.

I'm dryin' off that milky sea,

And goin' to see my Lord.

The sailors are all ready, kneel & kiss that promised land!

I tried to climb the theater,

Now I'm goin' to see my Lord.

But the pork made her so heavy,

So I'm goin' to see my Lord.

I got weighed down with glory with that mask stuck to my forehead.

O my weary feet have wandered,

But I'm goin' to see my Lord.

Please annoint my soles with oils,

O I want to see my Lord.

Verdant thunders ever rollin', rainin' crowds of fiends abhorrèd.

With the quest & goal united,

I'm goin' to see my Lord.

I've thrown both shoes from that caboose,

And I'm going to see my Lord.

And I'll sit & eat with Jesus at the right hand of the Lord!

And peace will rain like gold once did!

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Commentary

Along with the devastation and continued governmental ineptitude of Hurricane Katrina, it is also the one year anniversary of my popular song "I'm goin' to see my Lord." I was able to record it last September in the CalArts studio, as part of an Angel Band project with Melinda Rice, but it is a simple recording of myself singing drunkenly into my computer which has won the public's heart. Indeed, it can be heard on mix CDs & at parlor gatherings around the country. I have had numerous occasions to perform it, once in a recital at a church with Mrs Bonnie Whiting Smith in New York City last January, & at a sampling of open mics & "talent hours" across Northern California. It is always met with smash adoration; in short, it is my greatest hit.

I have received many e-mails & phone calls demanding, sometimes with serious urgency, to have the meanings of certain elusive passages elucidated. I ask, did Leonard Cohen or Samuel Coleridge ever receive such pesky ingratitude? It were as if my fan's immortal salvation hinged on the clarification of the line "For the showboat was a failure / So I'm goin' to see my Lord." Such is the moral weight of correctly composing a sacred lyric. I recall my then-roommate James Eliot Quill - while playing "Civilization III" & drinking my wine - ridiculing me for the line "But the pork made her so heavy," commenting that juxtaposing utter nonsense with profundity can undermine the latter. I retorted that it can also inspire an informed understanding of the nonsense, but I did not consider that line to be nonsense, so I went and locked up my boxed wine from inspiring any further illuminations.

For the most part, I consider the lyrics to be mostly matter-of-fact, hiding few unattainable allusions. Also, I am too aware of the dangers of explaining one's own poetry in one's lifetime. It runs the risk of being forever chained to the text in a footnote, regardless of how helpful the author's explanation actually is. T.S. Eliot may have written his own useless endnotes. St. John of the Cross wrote sixty-page commentaries on his own six stanza poems. With the exception of what I am doing now, I refuse to engage in such ridiculousness. (I am also not a Christian-existentialist.) If one approaches a line like my 'pork' line without additional explanation, think of the freedom the listener has to generate or to ignore his own imaginative interpretations. One gets very nervous at press conferences, & an artist or politician will say all manner of unfitting things. It's been a year since I first sketched those lyrics, & if I were to say now that the 'pork' line was about the unhealthy Orson-Wellesian gluttony of the entertainment industry, and my subsequent abjuration of that art for more ascetic pursuits, I cannot ever be sure to what extent how I read it now corresponds to what I was or wasn't thinking then. Orson Welles was somewhere in my collective imagination, linked in a vast series of associations with my understanding of what "theater" is. Perhaps I called up his image, but I don't think so. Still, if Terry Gross were asking me about that line, I would probably mention his name. Was Orson Welles Jewish, did he even eat pork? Perhaps his obesity was wholly swineless. If something of that nature was ever attached in a footnote to that line, a graduate student writing his thesis on my lyrics might make a note that that is what the line means, & never question the issue again.

The other song "Gospel Train" is brand new. It was written as a sequel, written at the Webb Block, the site of Part Two of my Weblog, which soon will house the fanciest high speed wireless internets to plug into my slow old computers. The Webb Block is on the corner of a busy intersection, sirens & rush hours & the like. Like the first song, "Gospel Train" has two locals: where I'm leaving & where I'm going. I just noticed that both the dystopia & the paradise in "Gospel Train" are car-free. In the dystopia, cars can no longer drive on decaying asphalt & sunken bridges; in the paradise, the highways are cotton & the bike lanes are wide. And of course the idea of the gospel train itself is both retro and futuristic, but currently out of favor. Sustainable energies & a healthier transportation have been much discussed recently by scientists, journalists & politicians. Culture critics point out the societal desolation caused by sprawl. They even comment that art & business suffer because of the useless hours spent in a car commute, when any other vessel of conveyance leaves the hands & eyes free. But where are the theological-poetical voices? Don't the Christians think the soul & earth is suffering from a civilization built with freeways? Don't the Mormons question the raping of their holy land? Don't musicians miss quieter streets? Mystics & poets have a freedom that politicians & journalists tied to pragmatism do not. Even Bob Dylan sang eloquenty in the dialects of dystopias & utopias, a tradition as old as language. Has the Bush-era left us with such a fear of idealism, that when we need it most to radically alter the way a society moves, all we can do is limit Californian industry emisions 25% by 2010, & sing songs about sex?

E-mail to Samuel Tear Amidon

Date: Wed, 30 Aug 2006 17:15:14 -0700 (PDT)
From: "James Welsch" <______@yahoo.com>
Subject: Farting
To: "Samuel Tear Amidon" <________@gmail.com>

Dear Sam,

You know, I just found out, Jacob Danziger lives two blocks away from me. I haven't seen him yet, tho. Why don't you go to Mills also?

My parents' only comment about American Wake (which I put at the top of their netflix queue) was: "Thomas really has terrible posture!"

I liked it, watching it again. I think it's a subtle movie about modern multiculturalism. It's kind of ironic that the movie you're in is kind of the opposite from the type of movie I bet you daydream about being in.

Politics: What the fuck is going on?
Art: So last century.
Music: I like Brad Mehldau's newest album. I'm trying to listen to more jazz. That would be easier if it wasn't so boring.
Living in Berkeley: do you realize how much more beautiful & laid-back this city is, compared to cold ugly unhappy New York? Boy, you all made shitty decisions there.
Living in New York: Did you hear about the Manatee sighting?
Old College Days: Our Freshman friends returned this week, they're all adult seniors now.
Daisy Press: I had a dream that she lived above me, & I was mad at her that she stomped around at five in the morning in high heels. In reality, it was Gloria, our upstairs neighbor's catsitter.
Our new apartment: It's sweet - it's huge, in a 1905 building, above an antique store. Also, it's not in Brooklyn.
Radio: My mother bought me an hour's radio time as a guest DJ. I think I'm just going to read "The Great Gatsby" for an hour. Have you heard Bob Dylan's show?
iPods: Do you know anyone whose iPod has not broken? Why aren't they better quality?
Movies: I didn't really care for "Metropolitan". You should decide whether you like a film after you've seen it. I'm excited about "Marie Antoinette." Whatshisname is playing Louix XVI.
Singer/Songwriter: I just wrote a song called "Gospel Train." It's a sequel to my song "I'm going to see my Lord." I play at an open mic night every Tuesday, at the Starry Plough. Also, I've been Sacred Harping every monday.
Friendship: I can't believe you couldn't make time to see me when I was in New York for a whole fucking month! You fuckface!
Life: My mother's been telling me about fate. I believe that patience and dedication brings what you want to you. Also, your thoughts have power - when you think something enough, often it comes to pass. Just like in Lolita!
Death: We live in the first culture where obesity is a sign of poverty. What the fuck is going on?

Signed,
James

Song of the Cannonball

Sent by a rash love, a birthday pony,
_____Endlessly illuminated by essays,
_____A mess of gray books in a maze,
Denounced by beards and drunks,
A dwarf & a giant fettered in matrimony,
Denounced by hippies and scholars and punks,
A stream of lies and the solemn reality
_____Tied together in a cave,
Calling out to the threshold of impartiality,
_____And sand summoned by a ceaseless wave,
__________And three metaphors and two blunt facts.

A request for return from the orphaned widowers,
_____Immortally entombed in a flatulent statue,
_____A pestilent flowerpot or two,
Praised by historians and pundits and a ragtime's curse,
A long fence thru a field of decay and cannibal rattlesnakes,
Praised by a senator and the terrorists and worse,
An orgy of hurricanes and airplanes and earthquakes,
_____A polygamous investment,
The rhetoric of morality, the persistency to believe in his mistakes,
_____And three borrowed and four more lent,
__________And one more taken when the silence attacks.

Apology to Loyalists

Here I offer my regrets for the summer vacation of this weblog (I assure you I was listening to the below listed "summer listening!") I will shortly return with a reknewed literary enthusiasm. In the past month I have been on an aimless roadtrip, with a hoped goal of settling in Berkeley, California, at the end. In the meantime I read Lolita & saw Shakespeare's King John at the Ashland Shakespeare Festival; I camped on several beaches & among the tallest lifeforms on Earth. I have finally settled at the historic building, 1985 Ashby Ave, across from the Ashby BART station in lower Berkeley. I am considering a revival of this weblog with the updated physicality, namely, "Live from the Webb Block".